So How’s The Diet Going?

I had a blog post written, and copied and and and… and I lost it. That did not help improve my foul temper. Now you’re going to be subjected to a whiny rant should you read further, so feel free to click away.

Basically, the dieting sucks. It sucks giant bloody donkey balls is how its going. Not being able to eat what I like when I like makes me one grumpy bitch I can tell you that much.ย But loathing the blob that I see in the mirror means I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I didn’t even take part in the Sass Designs photo shoot like I was supposed to because when I tried my dress on again a day or so before the shoot I started crying. I’ve spent most of the weekend on the brink of bursting into tears because I think all the time about the foods I am craving and how much I hate the way I look.

Yes my health is suffering and my family’s history of diabetes, kidney trouble, heart problems and arthritis means I should be careful with my diet. And yes I know I will be much happier with myself once I’ve lost the extra weight I’m carrying. But that ย doesn’t make it any easier not to think about food. Food is my happy place. But looking in the mirror makes me think that I went back in time to find the thin me from 1992, and ate her.

21 thoughts on “So How’s The Diet Going?

  1. You know I understand exactly what you mean. I STILL can’t get my head around this diet thing even though I am working VERY hard at gym. The results are not what I want, but I’m going to keep trying. I have to ๐Ÿ™

  2. You write so expressivley my Angel – I love your closing line. I can SO relate. I am SO proud of your efforts – it’s NOT easy to diet. Ever.
    I read once “At the age of 30 you have the body you deserve”
    It applies to me, sigh. Love you so much my precious Angel.

  3. Hugs, Aunty. And strength. And if all else fails, know that there are a million skinny bitches out there (including this one) who would kill for a pair of boobs like yours! ;P

  4. yeah i am there with you. Hubby and i are trying to be better about going to the gym – went yesterday the first time in for ever and today i am sore – plus traveling healthy food that I eat is not all that easy to find .. i wish there was an easy out ๐Ÿ™

  5. i still think you’re totally gorgeous and totally do-able.

    hope you feel better soon – it sucks to be in this space….xx

  6. it does suck I am at the point where if I see another lettuce leaf I am going to crack up, so I sort of abandonned my diet -5kgs in I am sure I have picked a bit of it up already :o/

  7. Hang in there. Hang in there. Hang in there. It will be so worth it in the end. (I am saying this to both of us – as I had a weekend FULL of birthday celebrations and I too was VERY irritated that I could not just eat whatever I wanted to!!)

  8. I keep finding all the weight other people have lost ๐Ÿ™‚ and it’s always after I have eaten the house nevermind the fridge!

    I have decided to move because I think this house is making me fat.

    Hearts china ๐Ÿ™‚

  9. Try new things like hobbies that you can perhaps make your happy place. For me these days it is painting, exercising, walking with the kids, watching a movie or TV series. I remember that in the beginning when I used to feel the way you are feeling now, I would put on my walking shoes and go for a walk. The adrenalines which is released by walking, made me feel better. Just a suggestion.

  10. Food was my happy place too. It took me 2 months to get through the struggle to find something else to be my happy place. I know it’s hard but just concentrate on your goal and stick it out. It’s worth it. Hugs

  11. It gets easier Angel – I promise!

    The first 3 weeks are like a detox, horrible period!!

    You are doing great! Just keep moving – small steps!!

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