I realised this morning (okay- long ago actually) that I have more than passed the point of being able to disguise my weight by dressing cleverly… Everything looks like shit on me. I cannot ignore my double chin anymore- its developed a personality and wants an ID of its own! I am uncomfortable even being seen by anyone… I “hide” in my office and quite frankly I would rather stay home. I am embarrassed to drop Damien off at school in the mornings. I can go to the gym everyday- but if I drive home via McDonalds or KFC it’s not going to help much is it? So now I am officially obese (I was medically obese years ago) in my own eyes and the eyes of those around me! IMHO- this is what happens when you combine depression and having money available for junk food. Drastic measures must now be taken.