I Take Happy Pills- Yes I Do!

I take happy pills…
How bout you!?!?!
aBOOMashaka CLAPclap…
aBOOMashaka clap…
…I can’t heeeeaar youuuuu…
aBOOMashaka CLAPclap…
aBOOMashaka clap…
I take happy pills, yes I do,
I take happy pills…

Heh heh… how’s that for exaggeration!

I have mentioned before that I am on anti-depressants, and I thought that since I have noticed such a huge difference in myself since I started taking them, I’d explain- how I feel about them and why I take them- in a little more detail.
I take one capsule a day of a brand called Nuzak. First of all, I did not go to a shrink for my depression, I went to a GP. Simply because I woke up one morning after one of mine and Damien’s “episodes” and I couldn’t stop crying and she was the first person I could see that morning. But this particular morning was just the last straw- the one that broke the proverbial camel’s back. It had been long before that morning that I had started with other… um… issues. For several years and with gradual aggravation, I didn’t want to leave the house. I would make plans with friends and family and then cancel at the last minute with some lame excuse so I could stay home and eat spaghetti and watch TV. I didn’t want to see anyone, go anywhere or do anything- and at the same time I didn’t want to be at home alone either. I was always in a bad mood. All I wanted to do was sleep and read. Except at work; at work I was my usual “bubbly” self with a smile and a joke or a cocky flirtatious one-liner for everyone and anyone. Most of the time. Before I changed jobs last year I had started taking my depressed self to work with me and I was not popular at all.
So what’s the most significant difference I’ve noticed in myself?
Mainly- my reactions to things that go wrong… go wrong… go wrong… Kidding. But honestly, being a single mom to an ADHDer takes a lot out of you- and a lot of “stuff” happens. With Damien there have never been small mishaps or little issues- falling off his bicycle meant a trip to the emergency room with torn ligaments, x-rays, stitches, a swollen face, a new helmet and time off school with pain killers. Yes really. Hence I do not allow him to ride his bicycle or skateboard without the requisite safety gear like helmet and wrist-guards. Discovering he’d climbed up the shelves in my bedroom closet meant a trip to the emergency room and a stomach pump. Yes really. Not being able to get hold of him on his cell phone meant a trip to the police station to fetch him out of jail. Yes really.
Before I started taking anti-depressants, I was the queen of overreaction- I owned the patent! If Damien got into trouble I’d scream and rant and cry all the way home from wherever it was I fetched him from. If we were at home I’d throw things and scream and shout and slam doors and completely go overboard!
Now, thanx to my Nuzak, I can actually think something through… before over reacting.
Even my family has noticed a difference- and that’s big for me!

6 thoughts on “I Take Happy Pills- Yes I Do!

  1. This is courageous of you to reveal, Angel.

    If you didn’t know, although I’m sure you do, the estimates are that at least 15 per cent of the world’s population is in a state of depression.

    It’s probably higher than that.

    There is a horrible stigma out there that this depression is somehow different from any more physical malady, and that it needs to be hidden from view and not acknowledged.

    My dad has been on anti-depressants his whole life. Some of my siblings are too.

    If taking medication has helped you, then that’s a great thing and you are one of the smart ones, able to figure out things weren’t right.

    These types of medication can do wondrous things, and we should all be thankful for them.

    I’m smiling for you and admiring you and your honesty.

  2. spookie: who you calling a fruit hey!?!

    justin: i dunno either sometimes…

    tomcat: heh heh… i’m reckon too chicken to try taking damien’s meds- i’ve watched too much tv…

    paul: couldn’t survive without help dude!

    paul: couldn’t survive without help dude!

  3. I would also be throwing things around if i were you. but good on you for dealing with it all – i think it is very admirable.

    I was reminded of an episode of Desperate Housewives where Lynette, in a desperate effort to deal with her crazy sons, took their ADD pills – and she became supermom. it was funny.

  4. Good to hear that you’re feeling better on these, Angel. I think that being a single mum, coping with all the recent troubles you’ve had, is extremely difficult — I don’t know how you and other single mums manage.

  5. LOL!! Oh you fruit. I love your little ra ra song there, very funny.

    And remember, a happy pill a day, keeps the “bad feelings” away!!

    Love you madly!

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