…of being too terrified to shit Damien out for something he’s done- even when I am so in the right- because I am afraid he’s going to do something rash like run away!
I have this hollow knot of fear in my stomach when he’s home and we’ve had a fight- and if he doesn’t answer his phone I have to force myself not to go racing home to look for him.
It infuriates me and terrifies me and I want to beat his head against the wall when he answers his phone and I can hear in his voice that he’s still pissed off with me!
I’m so angry today that I have an upset stomach!
Little son of a bitch…